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ENVY and JEALOUSY

I don’t know if I’m still insecure with myself or I just envy this certain someone. Because I know I can’t be her or at least, be like her. I’ve never been envious. I mean, I was pretty chill about the way I look and the way I see myself is just normal. But now, everything seemed to be chaotic and here I am talking about this. Letting this issue out on public. Well, I know that not many people visit my blog but still, internet is really a public place. I just hope people don’t get me wrong.

She’s just so beautiful and so popular and everybody just likes her. They are interested on her life, her whereabouts and just simply every tiny detail of her life. I mean, do I have to be controversial to get some of that attention? So now, you’re thinking that I am an attention seeker. All I really want is a taste of popularity. How it feels to be the talk of the town? How good it is that people wants to be your friend? How it feels to have 20 or a hundred guys drooling over you? This is the very reason why I don’t feel pretty enough or intelligent enough or simply good enough.

I’m just thankful that my boyfriend is understanding enough about my self issues. I’m just thankful that he continues to make me feel like I’m the best person in the world. I’m just thankful that he isn’t tired of my never-ending life dramas.

I know I should get over this jealousy. This isn’t healthy.

Ohhh.. Does this mean I’m sexy?

I actually have all these stuffs. I have COLLAR BONES. I have HIP BONES. And I absolutely have a THIGH GAP. This thigh gap is making me insecure too and I have never thought some girls would want to have them. Well, lucky me? :))

Never taking my eyes off of this kind of hair

I swear that I would get this hair in the nearest future.

TBH’s on Facebook

People do all these TBH (To Be Honest) thing on Facebook. I, for one, would like to do that but won’t because of the following reasons:

1. I am not popular enough to get people to actually like the status and read what I have to say about them.
2. I might say something that they won’t like.
3. I would be so honest about them that they would have to read a freakin’ novel (well, that’s an exaggeration of course).

So if I do a TBH, I would make sure that I will be ready and prepared for it. And I would like to make sure that I would get people to read it too.

I don’t know how else I’m gonna explain this but I’m investigating my boyfriend’s other girl. The girl who almost ended our relationship.

Well, he said they’re not together anymore. But someone just messaged me on Facebook and told me that she thinks that something’s still going on between them.

Yes, I’m pretty transparent about my relationships but this is the only releasing ground for me. So, going back. Now, we’re on shaky grounds with my boyfriend. And it’s really hurting me. I don’t know what to do anymore. The only great thing for me right now is that we have not broken up. I just wish all my theories are wrong.

A Late Mothers’ Day Message

I think mom’s are awesome. They love you so much and they never let anything bad happen to you.

Typically, my mom is like your mom but I think my mom’s the best. She has great strength. I mean, she barely has anything to give us all we need but somehow she manages everything in. She’s absolutely the best mom. She’s like the ultimate supermom. Well, I’m a bit bias though. Of course, she’s mom. I always think she’s the best. And despite all her shortcomings, all her never-ending nagging and constant blabbering, I love her with all my heart and with everything I have.

I may not have everything but her love is the kind of stuff I need to comfort my aching soul and heart. Although she doesn’t know my problems. I’m not that comfortable telling problems to her. She have a lot on her shoulders right now. I don’t wanna add up.

So to everyone. I hope you’ve treated your mom well last Mothers’ day.